Sunday, April 19

fear...

scare and worry... the only emo im in nw..
i think more appropriate way to say is "horror"
im in horror state, in enormous fear that haunted me..
make me cannot breath properly. make me felt suffer and pain.
mostly fear.. extremely fear...
wat am i fear?
fear of theology.
fear of knowledge.
fear of God.
fear of suffer..
fear to know the truth..
fear to jump in wrong conclusion,
fear of... mysef...
the horror haunted me so terrifying..
the whole nite... im thinking,wat am i here for?
aftr attend seminar bout theology, the more i learn,
the more i know nothing, the more i study, the more i found tat im limited,
the more i learn, the more i dunno who am i, who is God..
the horror, haunted me terribly... make me felt like cant breathe.
hw?? should i continue? or should i stop??